To most of you, it would be the most insignificant decision to be made, but to me it was a
really hard one…
Let me explain.
After 19 years of torturing my eyes with different kind of contact lenses, ranging from
semi soft, the initial soft ones to monthly disposables, suffering many infections, one
corneal ulcer, which almost costed the vision in one eye, a lot of pain and watery eyes,
while driving, or walking through dusty places, I finally decided to just use my glasses.
Why would this be so important to me?
A lot of my insecurities in my childhood stemmed from being not so great looking.
Imagine a shapeless child, with protruding teeth, dark skin with patches and soda
glasses…. Kind of get the idea?
I was teased, harassed, the glasses were stolen and hidden, so I could search for them
like a blind mole and was mostly on the verge of tears till a well meaning friend came to
my rescue. I would read the story of “The ugly duckling” and cry, wondering if would ever
become a beautiful swan.
When a doctor suggested that a possible way to stop my progressive myopia was wearing
contact lenses, I jumped for it.
Once I was over my teens, and importantly after 5 years of orthodontic treatment, things
looked brighter, but my self esteem had not recovered. I have to mention somewhere that
I was the ‘Ms Beautiful eyes’ in college.
My insecurity got me into wrong relationships, which obviously didn’t give me what I
needed. Rather it gave me a surge of courage, followed by a deepening despair and a dip
in the way I looked at myself after the relationship ended.
I also started to understand that people could be attracted to my looks. In the following
years, with an enhanced sense of dressing, I realized I could be an object of attention and
led to a good feeling, which couldn’t be called self esteem.
It took me 30 years of living to understand what I really needed.
What I really needed and desired deep within was to be loved unconditionally, regardless
of my looks. And it was only now that I sought the one, and found him (or should I say he
And it is amazing! Gone is my fear of ageing, my worries about forgotten make up or
looking less than my best. You see, he loved me at my worst, so any improvement on that
was more than perfect. So now I decided to wear glasses because:
I know I am loved no matter what I look like.
I want to be liked and appreciated for who I am and what I do, not what I look like,